Troubled Irish singer Sinead O'Connor has released a 12-minute video admitting she is suicidal and living out of a motel in the 'a**e end of New Jersey'.
While sat on the bed of the room in Hackensack, mother-of-four O'Connor said: 'I am now living in a Travelodge motel in the a**e end of New Jersey. I'm all by myself.
'And there's absolutely nobody in my life except my doctor, my psychiatrist - the sweetest man on earth, who says I'm his hero - and that's about the only f***ing thing keeping me alive at the moment... and that's kind of pathetic.
'I want everyone to know what it's like, that's why I'm making this video.
'Mental illness, it's like drugs, it doesn't give a s*** who you are, and equally what's worse, it's the stigma, it doesn't give a s*** who you are.
'Suddenly all the people who are supposed to be loving you and taking care of you are treating you like s***. It's like a witch hunt.'
The troubled singer-songwriter said she was 'fighting like all the millions of people' battling a mental illness.
'If it was just for me I'd be gone. Straight away back to my mum... because I've walked this earth alone for two years now as punishment for being mentally f***ing ill and getting angry that no one would f***ing take care of me,' she said.
'I'm a 5ft 4in little f***ing woman wandering the world for two years by myself.'
She also added that she had been in hospital for kidney stones recently.
A woman staying at the motel told
Page Six that O'Connor had been staying there for a week. 'She had a hospital band on her wrist,' the woman said.
The woman added that O'Connor kept to herself but 'left her door wide open all week except at night' and would often go to the Pepsi machine.
The guest, who hasn't seen O'Connor since Friday, said the first time she saw the Irish singer she told her boyfriend: 'That looks like an old Sinead O'Connor.'
The footage immediately sparked fear among her fans.
'I go to bed every night worried about you,' one person wrote. 'I wake up and tentatively log onto Facebook because of my worry for you.'
Another wrote: 'To Sinead's kids get over and help your mother, she is crying out for you all, forget what has happened and forgive, keep forgiving her until you get over there and give her a hug.'
Keith Kaulfers, a guest staying at the Travelodge motel, said he thought O'Connor 'would stay at a much nicer place — a hotel, five stars, things like that'.
And Hamilton Richard, who is visiting the US from England, told
NorthJersey.com that he was '100 per cent' surprised to hear about O'Connor being at the hotel.
'I'd be very confused not just surprised that she's here,' Richard said, adding that the area of New Jersey was 'very different, but not an a**e'.
But the news website also quoted a Travelodge employee saying last night that he had no record of O'Connor staying at the motel.
O'Connor has spoken previously about how she was diagnosed with bipolar disorder more than a decade ago and has struggled with depression and post traumatic stress for years.
She told Oprah Winfrey in 2007 that before her bipolar diagnosis she had struggled with thoughts of suicide and overwhelming fear.
She said at the time that medication had helped her find more balance, but 'it's a work in progress.'
O'Connor said in later interviews that she was misdiagnosed with bipolar disorder in 2011.
The mother of four sparked a police search in May last year when she failed to return from a bike ride in suburban Chicago.
About two hours after she left on the ride, a rambling message was posted on her official Facebook page that referred to emotional trauma she had been through over the years, prompting fears she had disappeared to take her own life.
She was found by police later that day at an unidentified hotel.
O'Connor, who is a mother to four children from different relationships, took to Facebook in 2015 to say she had taken an overdose at a hotel somewhere in Ireland.
Irish police later said she had been found safe. The next month, she posted on Facebook that she had been detained in a hospital for mental health evaluation.
Comedian Arsenio Hall dropped a $5million lawsuit against O'Connor earlier this year after she apologised and retracted comments she made on Facebook that he had supplied drugs to Prince.
If any readers are seeking help, please contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline on 1-800-273-8255 or visit
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Four marriages, three affairs with women and four children: Sinead O'Connor's troubled love life
Sinead O'Connor has four children - Jake, 29; Roisin, 21; Shane, 13; and Yeshua, nine - with four different men.
In addition to four marriages, the singer has been involved in three relationships that produced children, as well as, she claims, three serious affairs with women. Here is a list of her relationships:
John Reynolds (married 1987-1991, divorced, son Jake)
She had her first son Jake with her first husband, drummer and music producer John Reynolds. He worked on multiple albums with her including Universal Mother and they married in 1987 before their union broke down in 1991.
Jake later had a son - O'Connor's first grandson aged 48 - with his girlfriend Lia in 2015.
John Waters (never married, daughter Roisin)
Roisin's father is Irish reporter John Waters - and the couple had a lengthy custody battle in the mid-1990s which culminated in O'Connor agreeing for her daughter to live with Waters in Dublin.
Nick Sommerlad (married 2001-2004, divorced, no children)
She married the British journalist Nick Sommerlad in a secret ceremony in the summer of 2001 after a whirlwind romance but they soon split up.
Donal Lunny (never married, son Shane)
O'Connor had her third child Shane with Irish musician Donal Lunny in 2004, around the time she said she was retiring from music - although she later restarted her career again.
Frank Bonadio (never married, son Yeshua)
In 2006, Sinéad began a relationship with Frank Bonadio, the estranged husband of singer Mary Coughlan, that produced a son, Yeshua. They split in early 2007 but remained friends.
Steve Cooney (married 2010-2011, divorced)
O'Connor married her longtime friend and frequent collaborator Steve Cooney in July 2010 but their union only lasted until the following April.
Barry Herridge (married in 2011, separated, no children)
She wed Barry Herridge, an Irish therapist who helped her with her son was ill, in 2011 in Las Vegas but the marriage lasted for a mere three weeks - and they only lived together for seven days. Although they separated, they are not believed to have legally divorced.
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